But somehow, even when I make a mess of everything, he still forgives me and doesn’t go anywhere. (which let’s be honest confuses me even more, but he is still here and I will take what I can get)
What’s my talent you ask? Apparently fucking everything up.
I got my hair cut this morning and the woman who does it I’ve known pretty much my whole life. So we were talking and I was explaning about the boy and she was all “you need to go out and date other guys and then maybe he’ll come to his senses.” But I don’t wanna date anyone else, I don’t want anyone else. I just want him. Why can’t people get that through their head? Gah!!!
Got to see the boy tonight unexpectedly. I didn’t really get him anything for his birthday (which was yesterday) as I’ve been unsure if that was okay or not. So instead he jokingly said I got to be his present…and then took me to bed. And I don’t mind one bit. :-)
Afterwards we took a shower together to cool down. We’ve never done that together before. Usually I just shower. So that was new and exciting tonight. I’m all giddy and happy and smell like him. I think we’re making progress though we still haven’t “talked”…we will soon though.
So I’m on my way to see one of my closest friend’s mother who I’ve known pretty much my whole life. But I’ve got these two bright red scratch marks across my upper chest. (im not sure if I did that in my sleep or if they are fom the boy last night) anyways I can’t cover them up so this could be an awkward encounter.
Just got back from seeing the boy. I am very sleepy and gonna crawl into my bed now. I still smell like him a little so I’m gonna fall asleep to that. Mmhhmm yep.
Making these cool brownies with a topping. But I think I messed the topping up by putting too much milk in but its already setting on top of the brownies…crap.